weekends

booze
coffee...
and boys??
hehehe


my friends and i are all looking forward to weekends.. 'cant blame us, coz from the type of work we do,alcohol intake each week is a must... cant wait 'till next time...

trip

good laughs
great friends


last night me and some friends pigged-out with some choco-orange muffin from bona .
tawanan lang because of the seahorse na pinadesign pa namen from one of the crew..
hehehe..its been a few months din before we got this chance to hang-out again.. love it.. ulitin natin 'to ha!

auto-in

people call it call center...
i call it LIFE.




today marks my 4th year in the call center industry,thank you to the following people who made my stay really meaningful:

to RALF AUGERBAUER, the first person ive ever talked to using my headset connected to my avaya phone, hehehe, thank you sir for being so patient even if it took me 20mins to finish your reservation, i wont forget you.

to my previous trainers and recent ones, ANNE and JOHNFER from Teletech, GAMMY from Etelecare, MIKE from JPMorganChaseBank, and now MAU and JE-AN of VXIPhil INC..thank you i have learned a lot from you guys.

to all the bosses ive worked and still working with, ARVIN LOMBOS, coolest boss ive met, ANDREW SUMANG, the lenient one, MIKE BUERA, for being so patient and now PHYLBERT STONE and JAY DACER, im beginning to enjoy your company and hoping for many years of stressful but fun work with you guys. thank you all.

and to all the people ive met and eventually became my good friends, WAVE 23 of Best Western, WAVE 107 of Sprint, Wave 2/39 of Home Lending, and WAVE 8 of DirecTV, kudos to you guys for all the hardwork.

THANK YOU.

almost

desperate?!
uhmmm...
yep..i guess.

there are many times in life that you'll get desperate. im sure everyone of us feels that.

life's many aspects could sometimes lead to a lot of complications and mishaps. i have always been desperate. growing up as an only child, i was desperate to have siblings, which is impossible because my mom and dad got separated before i was brought to the earth.

during my teenage years, i was really desperate to have a place of my own and do anything that i want, but now that i have it, i want to go back and live with mom.

there was a time before when i was trying to get out of an abusive relationship, stop all my vices including drugs, but i cant because i felt like im going to die without that guy and his chemical supply.

recently i got my heart broken because of some stupid asshole, im still trying to get over it when i met someone that makes that organ beat again... but bullshit... he's taken!! wahahahahaha!!!

desperation seeps in when youre almost there, many times i wish that life has no twist and turn, but then again i realized that without it there'll be no happiness, no contentment, no challenges, no ME.

i guess we all just gotta have to live with it. as the song goes... its just a ride, sometimes youre up, sometimes youre down, but dont forget enjoy the ride.

im kinda enjoying mine... how about yours??

raining

nothing..
just reminiscing.



lately its been raining..i do not know what's with it but i love it so much..

i remember, during college, when me and my friends bryan and rowell would text each other for a drinking session because its raining. we would bring our jackets with us, go anywhere we could afford, and drink till we cant take it anymore.

i love reminiscing when it rains, it makes me want to go back to those days when life isnt that complicated, id be happy with just the simplest thing life could offer.

rain represents all the tears that my eyes cried, i realized that a billion of them ran through my cheeks when i was not at my best.

even now, rain never seemed to fail and give me a satisfaction that one could have.. god, i love it, do not ever let it stop.. let it bring me days of shallow happiness and endless cries.

now im heading to my window just looking at the rain...

thank you god for the rain

zilch

0% tears
98% smiles
2% pain

if were on facebook right now, this would be my status. im almost but not quite close to being happy again, but see the improvement?!

that 2% of pain would be totally out of my system in a few days to come, i know...
but how i was able to regain that 98% of happiness?

EASY!!!...

well, on a second thought... not really...

WHO HELPED ME MOVE-ON?

Friends...








they can be brutally honest and supeeeer straight to the point (w/c can be rude at times) in giving advises, but i know within me that what they're saying is the real thing. i listened to them, kept those things in mind, i cried on their shoulders whenever i need to, and hang-out with them a lot.

WHAT DIDI I DO TO FORGET HIM?

i gather his stuff that he left in my place...






like his pictures,lighter,shoes,shirts that he wear when his at home, and some other knick-knacks.. i put them in a bag and kept them somewhere i cant see..
and that's it..




i know im over him... and that's for sure..

stupidity

iam writing this post immediately after my short trip to the hospital...
what was i thinking??!

i dont know...

i accidentally cut my finger with a swiss knife..
cant explain what happened... just look at the pictures...









it hurts.... sobra!!!!

i was suppose to upload the gory pictures, but that's too much for me to remember my stupidity.

AMPF!!!!!

abyss

move on but do not move away...






iam now crossing the bridge of moving on and letting go...while on this bridge, i realized that there still lots of things that i need to go through. i thought that once i stepped into this path,everything will be smooth and easy for me...i was wrong.

during this stage, there are obstacles that i need to surpass,fears that i need to conquer. there are million things in my mind right now that hinders my way to see the light on the otherside...one of them is the memories that linger and makes me want to go back and stay to the place where ive been...

where i came from is really not that of a chaotic place,but there are dark areas where ive been blinded so many times. but everytime i look back to it,there was once paradise too...a place where part of me still dwells.

crossing the bridge for the second time is not easy,i remember the first time i was here,it was six years ago...it brought a lot of tears that pained my eyes, while i was wishing for my death. there are torns scattered everywhere, some got stuck in my heart and soul even after i reached the otherside.

now on my second attempt towards the bridge,i suddenly felt his hands holding mine,iam afraid to let that go,coz i know that even if there's no tears in my eyes,the excruciating pain is deep within me.

i stopped for a while,thinking...
should i stay?...or should i go?
coz behind me is that abyss and i do not want to be there...again.

then i realized i was almost on the otherside,i can see the light,though its dim...but i saw it...i knew i saw it.

a few more steps...few more steps...

and ill be there.

feed your mind

ive been reading some books and other stuff, and its so fun to have a good cry with those books while lying in bed with 4 cups of coffee or more in your table,as well as learning some things you can apply in your everyday life, here as some of my favorite reads:



object of your love

this book is a collection of short stories about different love affairs, written by dorothy speak, what i love about this book is that it made me stay awake till i finish it, im not a big fan of short stories but this one is a winner.. i cried over some of the stories, i especially like the one entitled memorabilia, a story about being unfaithful...hmmm.

little beauties by kim addonizio

when i first saw this book i had no interest in opening it, it was a book i borrowed from a friend, but one night while i was bored i came across it, opened it, and had a good time with it... one of the things ive learned about it was, and i qoute "denial is the key to happiness, if you think too much about the terrible things happening in the world, you will just want to kill yourself. better to ignore the front page of the newspaperand flip straight to the arts section, go to movies, to the ball game, buy an entertainment system...fall in love"..AHHHHH!!!

we were the mulvaneys

by joyce carol oates, a book that wow-ed me.. it tells the story about compelling ties of love for the family... the book was kinda vague at the first few chapters but it was one of the best ever written i would say.

the devil wears prada by lauren weisberger


when i saw this movie a few years back, i didnt quite enjoyed it, then few weeks ago while hanging out at a friend's place i saw this book from her cabinet so i borrowed it... syempszz, relate naman agad ako, kasi i had this boss from hell din eh, mala-Miranda din ang dating nung hayop na yun... well, im so glad wala na sy sa paningin ko...belat!!!

in the meantime by iyanla vanzant

i luuuuurrvveeee this book..sobra.. kasi naman im in my "meantime" too..iynla vanzant is like the best person to have all the right words about what are you feeling here is one of the best thing that she said about the "meantime": "love is the experience of joy,peace,fulfillment,purposefulness,harmony,abundance,and service. These are often the very things we try to find in a relationship, and the things we consider impossible to find in our relationship with ourselves. we must de-program ourselves from the old love recipes, in the meantime, while we are de-programming, relationship can be trying. it can be very challenging to realize where you are and where you want to be and all the work you must do in order to get there.. hmm... something to think about huh!!

reader's digest

ive read from this mag that in every 200 people we see everyday, 2 of them are ghosts... creepy... hehehe!!

missive

my dearest you,

i remember the time when i first met you, you were wearing that pink shirt, you look good, a look of innocence that paints a picture of a guy that i want to fall in love with. We said "hello" casually at each other. The moment we talked i said to myself that i want you to be mine and love you for the rest of my life.

after that first meeting, you became my constant text-marathon partner. we talked of most anything day, noon, and night. time passed by so quickly i didnt notice that you became the closest friend i ever had. we shared moments of good laughter and bitter tears. i remember one time when you texted me and said " can i come to your place?" i didnt know that you are hiding a big problem, you began to confide o me, you cried like a kid, i cried with you, it was a long good cry that we fell asleep and forget it for a while.

there are lots of time that we shared funny moments together, like this one time when you helped me look for place that i could rent, i slipped into the mud and we both laugh our ass out, though it was embarrassing that other people saw me that time but i do not give a damn because im with you, i feel safe with you, you know. whenever you are by my side i feel like there's no one could harm me and you would shelter me from the coming danger.

you became my best-est friend, i ran to you many times when im afraid and need comfort. just a simple "that's okay" and a reassuring hug makes everything alright again. you are everything i dreamed of, you gave back to me everything that i have lost. you are like the bicycle i never had, but now im riding along in the highway of life.

i have loved you more than anything in this world, im wiling to give up everything for you, i respected your decisions, and listened carefully to your suggestions. your youth makes me feel like a kid again, your carelessness makes me wanna do anything i want without a care in the world.

i thought everything was fine and dandy between us, but as they say, nothing in this world is perfect, everything could fall apart. we fought, we argued, we hurt each other many times. but i never hated you, i cannot hate you, and i wil never ever hate you.

from the moment you were wearing that pink shirt, until that moment that we met to say our goodbyes, now you're wearing a gray shirt. A color that i hate because its sad and boring... all those moments will forever be glued to my mind, my heart, and soul.

that moment of gray shirt and two bottles of beer on the table, i looked into your eyes, it says "im tired, im giving up, i cant do this anymore, you have to let me go now". deep inside im saying i love you and will always love you til my dying day. i know you cant hold on anymore, even if i try my very best to keep you from slipping away.

now im letting you go, you're on your own now, while im here stuck in a moment, just like a kid learning to ride his bicycle but no one's there to guide him along the way. but i thank you, because i have learned so much from you, i will always carry that sweet smile in my heart, i love you, even if it hurts, i want to say i love you...

to you... who will forever be my bestfriend forever, my dear love, my favorite mistake, and my Botchog... goodbye... it is so hard, but i have yo say it now.... coz if saying it will make you forever happy, then i will be glad to repeat it over and over again.

thank you and again always and forever i love you....


until then,

brown butiki

ilovehim

i can feel my heart beats faster

whenever i hear his name

i look for him everywhere,

and when i cant, i blame myself…

ive been keeping my fancy for him,

though i know i need a lot of help,

my feeelings are getting out of control,

cant concentrate, thinking of him at all…

from this emotion, i want to be free,

but i cant get out of this fantasy,

he means so much to me,

i always pray for his safety…

as time flies, and seconds go by,

i really asked myself WHY???

is he really the guy?

cant get him out of my mind, i feel weak

when i see him sigh…

i love him… i love him…

though our chances are dim,

i love him till the end,

and when the end is over,

i’ll love him again…..

31

yesterday i celebrated my 31st birthday, but it is the saddest birthday i had.. i dont know why.. maybe im just thinking of a lot of things for the past couple of weeks.. im not sure if i should feel happy and thankful that i have reached this age, because most of the time i feel like a loser, for i havent achieved anything that i can be proud. well.. it sucks to be me... i guess!

goodbyes

i hate saying goodbyes.. as i would always say, it is because i know that a new chapter in my life will begin, and of course it includes adjustments, which is probably the worst thing for me on earth...but goodbye is something we cannot prevent from happening, there are sad goodbyes, but there are also happy ones, but still it is goodbye, meaning somebody, or something is going to leave you or you are going to leave them.. like what i've been through the past couple of weeks.. i said goodbye to the following people and things in my life:

i said goodbye to my friends at chase:
for some unfortunate reason i had to leave the company and those friends that
are dear to me..

i said goodbye to some of my old stuff in my closet
i had to give them up, i realized that i have a lot of stuff i havent used for quite some time and ive outgrown them.

i said goodbye to HIM, whom i loved and still love with all of my heart for the rest of my life
i realized that if someone or something makes you feel unhappy, then let it go, and thats what i did... ill move on.

and finally.. and the saddest goodbye of them all...

i said goodbye to a beloved friend
he has to go...i know.. he's coming back home to our father and creator.. to my
beloved friend rafael antonio san miguel (1979-2009).. "raffy" to us your friends, you will always be remembered, i can definitely say that i envy you right now, because youre in a place where there's no sadness, no fears, and no pain.. i love you my friend, i will always keep you in my heart.. give my kisses to my ate and lolo... thank you for your friendship.

valentines

valentines... here it comes again..

what's bad about it??.... NOTHING!!!
its just that i really find it weird whenever this day comes
in each year, people tends to be extra...hmmm... what's the word??!!!
CORNY? CHEESY? whatever..

i dont know about you guys but there's something about
St. Valentine's day that make other people go extra Ga-Ga
over their significant other..

but here's my take on it, i personally do not think that spending
this heart's day with someone who you think is special to you like
your BF or GF, ka-ON, ka-UM (M.U)is the only way you can enjoy
valentines..

im not trying to sound bitter here.. i also have spent my valentine's
with my partner discreetly, however, i also went out with my friends during
the night.. i greeted my mom, i sent e-mails to friends abroad,
and even texted those long lost friends from high school and college.

my point is, dont make valentines as an excuse for you not to enjoy it
especially when you're single.. there's a lot for you to do on this day
alone.. come think of it this way.. when you are in a relationship,
you tend to neglect friends who you havent been with
and things you havent done in along while...

then why not do those things, and call these people and spent time
with them, have a little chit-chat over a cup of coffee in starbucks
or watch movies together in your portable dvd.. instead of
crying over and cursing your Ex, because he/she ruined the day for
you..hey, its not the end of the world..

spending time with yourself is the most fulfilling task one could
do for valentines... think of yourself first, pamper it...
and be happy..

after all how one person can love you, if you yourself wont learn
to love the real you..

just a thought!!!

25 facts about me

i just wanna make "gaya" those
internet polls so here it is....



1. i was once teased as "butiki" coz when i was
a kid i was asthmatic, and there was this neighbor of
ours who told my mom that if she boil a house-lizard,
it would be an effective alternative to my medicines, i guess
that's true kasi nawala talaga yung hika, and thats the reason why
i have this tattoo of a "butiki" at my nape.

2. i have'nt eaten even a tiny piece of chicken
since i was 11 yrs. old because i have allergies.

3. my bestfriend is a straight guy and that's weird coz im gay.

4. i got kicked-out from a catholic school because i was
caught (along with my friends) smoking at the back of the school
chapel by my priest teacher.

5. i hate to see a wet cotton ball, it makes me wanna puke,
i do not know the reason honestly!

6. i still cant sleep without my "batutoy" (it is my hotdog-pillow
ever since i was 5 yrs. old.)

7. im a bit "claustrophobic"

8. not until i was 14, i cannot sleep without my
mom at my side.

9. i used to wet my bed while sleeping for about a
month when i was trying to sleep alone coz my mom wants me
to learn how to be independent.

10. i hate the letter "Q" because when i was still in
pre-school that was the letter i was having a hard time to
write, i always confused it for the letter "O"

11. my mom used to call me "tayok".. and till now
i do not know what it means (i think i should ask her)

12. during highschool, i had a crush with macaulay culkin, that's
the reason why i watched the movie "my girl" (his movie with anna
chlumsky) for 28 freakin' times, and i cried every single time.

13. my forever crush is river phoenix, when he died i cried alone
in my room (hihihihi!!!)

14. i love my dark skin, kasi i heard from oprah winfrey
that a person with a dark skin has 500% natural sunblock on
their skin... wala lang!!

15. i love the smell of gasoline... especially when it
is being loaded in the car.

16. i was once told that im going to be a successful
showbiz reporter kasi daw im madaldal.

17. the only life lesson i wont ever forget is
"only losers cry, and you are not, so dont" (and im not gonna
tell who told me that)

18. when i was learning how to drive, i accidentally bumped into
a police car, and my mom decided that that's the end of my
driving career.

19. since im an only-child, i used to think that my mom's
older sis is my sister too, kasi i would always hear my mom calling my
tita "ate" so nakigaya ako, and till now i still call her that.

20. i used to be a vegetarian.

21. i have 15 pairs of shoes pero i only use
3 or 4 pairs kasi nanghihinayang akong maluma sila.

22. due to a friend's birthday party, i sacrificed my eyesight,
kasi what i did was i sprayed a strong perfume in my eye, to make
it look like i have sore-eyes, and to earn a "sent-to-home"
certificate from my previous company's clinic, so that i could attend
the party.

23. i hate anime... eeeeeewwwwwwwwhhhhhhhh!!!

24. i love giving names to anything like my cellphones..
meron silang names na badong, tolome, pepper, anselmo, and recently
i named one "acquilino".

25. i love coffee and rainy days... perfect combination!!

it was a great weekend, but im still sad

saturday:


coming from the office, i had breakfast with my friends
jef, drea, and mau. we had different agendas after that, but
before going our seperate ways, we enjoyed an hour of fun,
food, and non-stop chismisan...

afterwards, i went my own way, to a place i'll dread
for the rest of my life, i do not want to go into details
about that because that would really make me sad...

i hated that day, it ended up so sad..


sunday:


im tired.. confused, sad, not in the mood..
i received a message from paolo saying that a stupid
person (whom i know) texted him, saying all stupid things
you could possibly think of..

went out with paolo for a couple of drinks,
im so glad i was able to talk to him,
it eased the confusion a bit...
we both got a little drunk..
but still the fact remains that my weekend
made me real sad..

im hoping this wont happen again..
coz that's real b*ll$h!%...

no regrets

hahaha..
im laughing my ass out...
iam alone right now, doing nothing..
so napagtripan kong mag-google lang ng
anything.. wala lang..

napagtripan kong i-search ang mga names
ng mga taong kilala ko..
like friends i havent seen for quite sometime now,
classmates from highschool, college, former
officemates, anyone at all..

its funny, coz everytime i would type their names
on the search box, puro mga profiles nila for friendster,
facebook, myspace, blogspot, at kung anu-ano pa ang lumalabas
then.. it came to mind to search for someone na lets just
say an "old friend" back in college.

and i found him.. (im not gonna tell his name)




i viewed his profile from a site (i forgot the name).
natawa lang ako, kasi it took me back to those
days when i was still so into him... grabeeehh..
kakatawa, i realized kasi na there are things
in the past na when you remember, it will make you
burst into a "supeerr halakhak"
but at the same time it will make you feel kind
of a li'l grossed-out, not because you regret those
things, but because of the fact that what you did back
then was really cheesy and corny.... yuccckk talaga.

but then i also realized na he became a part of my past,
and not to mention, i have learned a lot naman from him
and from those experiences i had with him..
no regrets.. though i havent seen him in a while, and
no news of any of his whereabouts, i can feel that he is
happy, and im hoping the best for him wherever he maybe..

anyway... thanks to you!!!

my anthony

i was riding the bus earlier going to work, when i realized na redhot chillipeppers pala yung nasa video board ng bus.... and since im a big fan of anthony kiedis, i was really kilig.. sobra!!

it seems like im back in college again, i remember kasi during that time, sobrang obsessed ako sa kanya.. i was buying their albums, as in all of it, i even memorized each and every song nila in the album, and when i heard that they're going to have their concert here in manila, talagang nag-ipon ako, but unfortunately since hindi ganun kalaki ang allowance ko that time, hindi umabot ang naipon ko.. na-sad lang ako...







and that was the time when i told myself na baka nga i wasnt meant to see him, so gradually nawala yung obsession na yun, until it came to a point na hindi ko na sya talaga crush..

pero sobra yung kanina...
when i saw that concert na pinapalabas sa bus, grabeeeeehhhh!!!
i regret na itinago ko lahat ng cd's and tapes nila, even their videos na nirerecord ko pa from mtv.. kasi i missed those days when i always listen and watch them...

i love anthony talaga... he's like the best ever crush ive ever had in the whole wide world...... wooohoooo.......

i miss mum

these past few days i have been going through some emotional battles.. and during times like these i do miss my mum

mum has not always been a friend to me, in fact there was a time before when i loathed her.. i hated her for being quite strict when it comes to studying,and maybe thats the reason why i didnt took it seriously that time, instead i shifted into different vices, i tried getting drunk each day, there are days when i do not go to school just to be with friends and drink, and worst of all, i tried drugs just to show that i rebel against her.. her being so nosy, of her being so pushy, or her just being the mother that i do not want her to be.

i even tried running away from home for quite a few times before, but mum would always find a way to locate where i am..

but now that i have come at this point in my life where i can say iam more mature, i have come to realize that mum was right, she was always right.

i miss the way she would preach me about things i thought i knew especially now that i do not have anyone to confide to.. i remember, anytime that i would encounter certain problems, mum would always lend her ear to me.. i can tell her anything, even my deepest darkest secrets, and she would listen without any judgment.

how i really wish that mum was here with me right at this very moment, 'cause just her touch, and her reassuring look would make everything alright..

just this weekend, i was able to see mum again but i wasnt able to talk to her about what im feeling, but the mere fact that i was there at her place,was more than enough for my mind to be at ease.

i felt mum's love the moment i step into her doorstep..
i knew mum loves me..
i know...

thanks mum... and i love you too even if i seldom tell you.

10

i am so inspired today and feel so grateful to the people
who made the past year memorable for me...
so i decided to write a post about the ten people who made
my year and here they are...



*raymond rodriguez, dinky soledad, and francis garcia*


my former officemates, they are such fun people to be with,
i dont think i would enjoy my stay at my previous company if not for them..
though it was not that long that ive been with these guys but the joy
of having them as my friends is such a blessing.. thanks guys!


*baby nicolei*


she's the new addition to our family.. may pamangkin na ko (sa pinsan)
actually nicolei pave the way para magkaayos ang mga hindi
magkakabati sa family namen especially my cousin clarie (nicolei's mom)
and my tita maryann, hope she grew up to be a good girl full of hope
and dreams.



*chase wave 39*


kudos to all the boys and girls and not so girls of wave 39
of prime dept.. i am so proud that all of us passed the extremely
"brainbleeding" training, now that we're about to apply what we have
learned, i hope that we'll still be able to incorporate fun in what
we do coz it'll definitely make the job easier for us.




*monica mella*

monique is one of my cousins and i admire her sense of maturity
even at a young age, there are many times na sya pa ang nagsasabi
sa akin ng mga dapat kong gawin. i would personally like to take
my hats off her because of how kind and generous she is to me especially
at times when im having trouble about some things that i should'nt
be bothered with if only i'll do it right from the start.



*clarie mella*


another cousin of mine, last year was memorable for me, clarie, and
monique kasi we were able to experience living away from our families,
we only got each other to lean on, and maybe that was the reason why me
and clarie had some issues that resulted to altercation, but still we
were able to fix it naman, im absolutely happy for her especially now
that she has nicolei in her life, i know that this year will be a good
one for her.


*6 boys from baclaran*


sila yung mga nangholdap sa 'kin nung new year.. maybe you're wondering
kung bakit sila kasama sa list ko... well its because na-realize ko na
nakakaawa ang mga batang ito, malamang nanggaling sila sa mahirap na
pamilya, and ang panghoholdap lang ang way nila para makatulong sa family nila,
im not saying na tamang gawing dahilan ang kahirapan para gumawa ng masama
sa kapwa, but, come to think of it sila ay mga biktima rin, victims of poverty
sabi nga nila. I realized na ganun talaga kahirap ang bansa natin, kaya marami
sa mga kabataan ang ngayon pa lang hindi makapag-aral at dahil doon ay wala
ring magandang oportunidad para sa magandang trabaho. siguro masyado akong naging selfish that time na naholdap ako, sinumpa ko kasi na sana ay mamatay na
ang mga taong ito na gumawa nito sakin, pero i have come to realize na maaaring
hindi rin nila ginusto ang mga ganung bagay, pare-pareho lang kaming biktima
ng pagkakataon, now ive come to forgive them.






*rowell relosa, bryan mendoza, and jimmy pomida*

these guys are my college friends, weve been friends for almost
10 years now.. and ive been through a lot with them, and im telling
you hindi lahat maganda, but the good thing is, we matured together, from
mga away-bata namen nung college until now sa mga konting tampuhan, naaayos
naman namen, we have learned na kasi to accept kung anu anu ang pagkukulang
ng isat isa kaya madali nang intindihin.. kahit hindi kame madalas magkita-kita
nowadays, i know that i'll always have a friend in them at ganun din sila sa 'kin.


*andrew sumang*


my former boss, he kind of became my friend during that time when i was with his team, but sadly, nagkaroon kame ng gap dahil na rin sa trabaho... but then i realized his worth when he resigned and transferred to another company, kasi
nung nagkaroon ako ng bagong boss na e mas balahura, bastos at walang respeto sa ibang tao ang baklang yon.


*my step brothers and sisters in antipolo*


last year ko lang sila lahat nameet, i was thinking na siguro that was the best
time na binigay sa amin but sadly, kung kelan kame nagkakila-kilala tsaka naman
nag-commit ng suicide ang isa kong sister, it was sad coz i wasnt able to get
the chance to know her better, but still im happy that i was able to meet her along with our other siblings.. may she find peace wherever she is right now.


*patrick paolo arganosa*


my bestfriend.. Chog has always been there, i know that sometimes its really
hard for him to understand me or me understanding him... kasi naman im so stubborn and often sinasabihan nya ko ng brat, pero kahit ganun sya at hindi kami lagi
magkasundo, andyan pa rin sya, i know na marami na kong nagawang kasalanan sa kanya
hindi na mabibilang yun.. pero kapag kailangan ko sya andyan lang sya lagi..
maraming salamat sa'yo Chog, i would'nt know how to survive the past year if you
were'nt there.. sana mas marami pang years ang pagsamahan natin, and ill do
anything para lang hindi ka na magalit especially ang mom mo whom i know na
galit sa kin, i hope one of these days i will be able to prove to them na hindi ako masamang tao. and im sorry sa lahat ng nagawa ko.


thanks to you guys... you made my life complicated but fun.