yebah!

2011 was a roller coaster ride for me... ive been to the lowest point of my life and about to give up but thanks to the people who made my year... here's my top ten list:

 

56.... you guys are the first few people ive met again after my 7month-hiatus, i will never forget the times we all shared together and im hoping we could all cherish that for the rest of our lives... Kudos to all of those who stayed, and I definitely miss all who left, I love you guys....

 

101... i miss all of you guys, my fondest memories with Citibank are those with you guys, im hoping for a big reunion hehehe...

AJ RUBIO... it may have been a very rough road that we went through but I still thank God that I met you, thanks for the memories...

 

TY MARQUEZ... thanks for the buckets and buckets of beer that we share especially at those times when I dont want to go home yet and just kill time hehehe, but seriously thanks for the friendship...

 

ANNA GOMEZ... thank you for the fun and laughter, i never thought that we would click the first time we've met, but it was all great... Woohoo!!!

 

RHON PUNZALAN... it was such a short time that we've spent together but I will always keep that in my heart, thank you for being such a great friend, I wish you all the best in your future endeavours... i miss you.

 

ASH TAYLOR... my Uber ingliserang friend, you never fail to make my nose bleed, but i super love you, looking forward to more times of us getting drunk even if we'll come to a point that we dont have money and start counting baryas hahaha....

 

  RONA ROSALES... my 'doubtfully fake daughter'... sayang! we didnt have much time to spend too but I thank you for your annoying halakhak that never fails to make me laugh... i miss you.

ANNA MANUEL... thanks teh for listening to all my woes, i know youre getting irritated of me at times hehehe but still you lend me your ears whenever I need them...

DJ SANTOS... Johnson I may never be the best person to spend time with, because I always nag you and tell you things I aint supposed to say but I swear I super Thank God that ive met someone like you who has patience for every piece of stubborn and weird Me, may we be superfriends for the rest of our lives... thank you. =)

 

 

amy

Till then Amy Winehouse...

Thank you for the great music...

founded

my little way of saying thank you to this people who are lately putting a big smile on my face...

To my new found friends in the 56th'hood... thank you... i would've given up at the very start but you guys are more than enough reason for me to stay... peace y'all!!!

hurt

i got really drunk last night.

'was talking to Gel about something (well....life!) then suddenly i found myself crying really hard, Gel went to hug me, to calm me down... it was kinda embarrassing but it was a good cry.. =)

blast

since wednesday this week i have been receiving text messages from my friends greeting me an advance happy birthday, asking where ill be celebrating my 34th and some planning a small celebration for me too.  my heart was really overwhelmed by all of this, most of my friends knew that im not planning anything for my birthday but the next few days was something i wasnt expecting...

my friend Rodge personally went to our house but too bad i wasnt there, he dropped a gift from my fave Forever21, a really cute blue shirt. few days before that, Gel my drinking-buddy and dearest friend also gave me something from there.

on wednesday night, i met up with my friends Glenys, Jay, Gel, Eric, Mimi, Cresky, and Anna after they had dinner in Bagnet and decided to have a couple of drinks in Makati,  we got a bit ''bitin'' so we raid Mimi's house, bought couple of bottles more, had a little sharing of ghosts stories and went home at around 7am...whew!

thursday came, i was with Gel in LasPinas just to get some of my stuff from her but eventually she insisted on indulging ourselves for a little Margarita but turns out it was a Boracay Sling, we stayed until 12 midnight to welcome my official day..

yesterday was a blast!!!! i wasnt expecting everything that happened. my birthday was packed and fun-filled... woke up at around 7am and found 86 unread messages on my phone, i was really touched by all the greetings especially  from those friends i havent had any communication with for quite sometime.

after replying to their messages, i had my breakfast alone, texted my bestfriend Shae since ill be meeting her for lunch (her treat by the way! hahah)... i opened my Facebook and there's tons of messages on my Inbox and some wrote on my wall, i didnt reply immediately to them coz i only have an hour to prepare and go to Ortigas where ill be meeting Shae, we agreed to wait for each other in Megamall, and have a bottle each of beer after our lunch.

around 5pm while riding the bus heading home, my phone rang, it was Glenys with his hubby Jay calling me and asking to come join them and some of our other friends for a movie, they're planning Red Riding Hood, its going to serve as their gift for me, i was hesitant at first but Jay convinced me since he said that it'll also be a celebration of his 28th birthday following mine.

at exactly 9 in the evening i left home going straight to Makati to meet everyone, had dinner at Bagnet (our fave, as always!) instead of a movie since we are time-constrained due to the "salubong" celebration of Jay a few hours after our sumptuous meal...we shared our toasts of 'Badtrip' and 'sisig' at Central Makati, jumped to another place along Pasong Tamo then went to Petron as we are not yet satisfied with our booze intake. around 7am, we're all tipsy, decided to have breakfast of sizzling steak and went home at around 9... whew! long long day it was but the fun never stopped..

that was all soooo memorable for me... thanks to all of my friends who made it all happened.. my 34th was a blast and im looking forward for next year heheheh...

i only have one wish... and that's....... =(

wow! im officially 34 years old today!!!....

ano kayang meron pag ganito na ang age?? hmmm ill find out in the coming days..

Happy Birthday to me! hihihi =)

pages

story??...

mine is this...

"he's dead"... that's all i knew about  Dad... i was practically raised by my Lola because Mum had to work to support me and all other expenses we need. i didnt grow up in a well-off family, good thing Mum has siblings in Canada who helped us financially...

when i was 5 years old, i started wondering why my cousins and other playmates has Dads who goes home every night with pasalubong but in our house its a different story. I didnt ask Mum or Lola or anyone about him, because i was too afraid ill get the same answer i was told when i was 4, that was trauma to me, hearing someone's death who's supposed to be a part of your existence was the last thing a four-year old kid would like to hear... i kept my silence.

all these years, ive been silent. my lips are sealed, my hands are tied. it was like living in prison, with rules to follow but only without a cell... but i want freedom... a real one.

highschool came, the freedom that ive wanted since forever was now on sight. ive gained friends who understood my likeness to be free.. ive experimented, i did what i knew was wrong but that during that time seemed right... eventually the consequences of those things took its toll on me... i was expelled from school, put on home study...Mum was furious.. i thought 'well maybe you deserve it Mum!'

during my days of fury, i knew that i still wanted to do more...i want to know if Dad's really dead coz i knew Dad was just out there, still alive and looking for me... i knew... i really knew... i dreamt of him crying while shouting at the top of his lungs... sometimes he would whisper in my ears, those words that i wanted to hear...'Im here son'...'Im just here'.

at 18, i was astounded by an unexpected news... Dad is still alive... living in Antipolo with his kids and wife... i wanted to shout, i wanted to say 'BOO you Mum, you lied to me, you deserve every tear that ran through your eyes coz you're a liar'... but i cant... i was mute-silent, didnt know what to do, all i knew was i want to see Dad, i want to talk to him, hug and kiss him.

the long wait was finally over, i met Dad... i saw my half-brothers and sisters, i saw his wife...he told me his side of the story, i believed him, i didnt judge... i listened... i cried, but all i could remember was when Dad looked at me and said 'no need for you to cry.. crying is for Losers like me, i didnt have the strength to take all my resposibility to you because im a coward, but one thing's for sure Mike, i love you, youre my son and nothing's gonna change that'....

that was the happiest moment of my life... but everything must come to an end... Dad passed away without me seeing and talking to him before he left.. but i guess that was okay... he just went back home to a place where wont have to suffer, no sadness, no fears, no sickness... only true and pure happiness.

when Dad was still alive, he would call me and asked  about a lot of things... those that he missed while im growing up... he asked how i was as a student, how was Mum, how was my life, particularly my love-life.. i told him everything... i told him that ive experienced how it was to be on an abusive relationship, i was physically and emotionally abused, i was living in hell... i also told him about the time when i fell in love again, i even introduced him to the guy... he was happy for me... he didnt say anything, he didnt argue, he's just ecstatic... he said 'whatever you want as long as youre happy, that's cool with me'

there were also times before when i would call Dad about things that i cant tell anyone... he's the best adviser... he was honest and straight to the point, no beating around the bush....

after Dad left this world, all i could remember was his reminder 'dont be afraid son, there will be times when you would have to take a punch in the face for you to gain knowledge, for you to learn, continue to seek wisdom, continue to take risks, always give love a chance, meet friends, gain enemies, be rude, be wise...tell your story and be happy'....

thank you Dad, wherever you are, i know that you are looking upon me.. ill see you, maybe not soon hahaha, but ill be seeing you...






... what's yours?

G-Day

my friend Gel Santos celebrated  her birthday on the 3rd of this month...
just want to share some of the pix of the fun we had that night..

 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GEL!!!!!

nostalgia

yesterday, alone at home and about to pull my hair out of boredom, the movie My Girl (one of my faves) came into mind. i remember i have the original VHS copy of  that movie and believe it or not we still have our VHS player at home and its still working.

so i looked for it and watched it on the 'still-working player' (vintage huh!), though it feels kinda baduy knowing that i could buy a pirated copy of that anywhere or download it over the net, i chose to watch it the VHS way!

(here's the movie's trailer)

nostalgia was all i felt throughout the movie. i remember watching it for 28 times during highschool since im a big Macaulay Culkin fan. i even memorized the poem that Anna Chlumsky (Vada) recited on the latter part of the movie, the one the she made on Mr. Bixler's class after Macaulay's (Thom Jr.) character died.

im soo inlove with this movie. every actor was profiled correctly for the roles they played, i especially love Jamie Lee Curtis's (Shelley) character as Dan Aykroyd's GF and Anna's confidante. the movie never failed to make me cry, its also the reason why i love anything vintage because of the outfits ive seen on the film and the soundtrack was amazing too, i also have a tape of that OST up until now and some of those songs are actually on my Ipod.

(sigh) i wish its still the 60's =)

35

35 things i want to do before 35

when asked, i always say that if given the choice, id rather die young and my ideal age for that is 35. in a few days, ill be celebrating my 34th birthday, so if i would die next year, i still have a lot of things left to do.

here's my list in random order:

-visit Cebu. ive always wanted to go there since highschool when a seatmate at school told me how excited he was for summer because his family will spend it there, and when we got back to school after vacation, he showed me all the pictures with the beautiful places theyve been. i envy him.

-get in touch with old friends Mon and Mackoy. i havent seen them since we had a misunderstanding =(

-visit my siblings in Antipolo. my Dad has his own family before he met Mum, i have 9 half-brothers and sisters, but not all is fond of me so i want to make it up to them.

-find out what happened to my favorite Grade School Teacher Ms. Danna Marie Yorro, after our family moved to Cavite, i didnt see her again. i admire her wit and patience, for me she's the epitomy of a great teacher.

-get in touch with my childhood bestfriend John. the last time i saw him was in 1994, i want us to play Monopoly and Snakes and Ladders again.

-go to Bali and meet Kutut, i want to be like Julia Roberts in the movie Eat Pray Love hehehe.

-send a letter addressed to PNoy in Malacanang. in that letter ill tell him do not let the Senate go against same-sex marriage.

-sign a waiver and donate my eyes and any other parts of my body that could be of use to those who needs it.

-go to Sagada alone. smoke as many jeuts as i could.

-meet my ultimate crushes Diether Ocampo and Angel Aquino and have them sign my shirt. LOL

-give all my clothes to charity, but not my Forever21's, ill bring that with me in my casket.

-help my bestfriend AJ find his Dad.. because i want his Dad to see that they can live without him. i admire Aj's strength to stand as a 'breadwinner' for his family, w/c is something that i dont think i can do.

-make an effort to help my other bestfriend Shae to get an annulment with her ex-husband.

-after annulment, ill help Shae prepare for her dream wedding with her beau JC. it'll be Fab!

-spend a week in Palawan with "P". it'll be the last time for me to walk with him along the shores, ill tell him all the things he needs to know and say sorry for all the mistakes ive done.

-go back to Baguio. most of the happiest vacation i had was in Baguio, so right before i die i want to reminisce how happy and thankful iam to live a fun life as this.

-watch Face to Face live in their studio. i need some action before my death. i want to see before my eyes how the guests throw the plastic chairs to each other while Amy Perez run to save herself.

-go to Disneyland with my niece Concha.

-meet Barrack Obama and tell him i fantasize waking up in bed with him. =)

-go to Manila's Fashion Week for the last time. i want to get an idea of what to wear inside my casket.

-buy some airconditioner for my friend Mimi. that's what she always wanted to have for her rented apartment.

-buy scholarship funds for Naya and Miguel (Shae's kids) BBoy (Aj's brother) Anisha (Mimi's daughter) Concha (my niece), they are my favorites.

-go to Amanpulo. one of my greatest dream is to see that island, just spend the whole day making sand-castles.

-learn professional photography and take beautiful random pictures.

-go back into painting. i used to do it a few years back when i experienced trauma and depression.

-spend a day food-tripping. from street food to 5-star hotel dinner, i want to eat everything till i get constipated.

-go bar-hopping again just like what i used to do in College.

-join Project Runway and design my own clothing line.

-have a photo exhibit at 'M' Cafe.

-go to Venice with Mum and ride a gondola.

-confess to 'him' about the love i have been keeping to myself.

-visit Batanes and see the Ivatans in person.

-play football with the 'AZKALS', if im lucky Derek Ramsey might agree for a Frisbee too in Boracay LOL.

-hear a Mass at the Vatican City.

-be at two places at the same time, just like Mandy Moore in the movie A Walk to Remember.

glam

my Audrey dream...

i have always had this fantasy of me living the life of the fab Audrey Hepburn. growing up, i always see Mum watching her movies and looking through her photos in the magazine. she's a big fan..'Funny Face' was her fave, a movie that Audrey starred with Fred Astaire.

earlier, while riding the bus going home, a kolehiya stepped in wearing a gorgeous shirt with Audrey's classic picture (the one that she has her tiara on, the likes of those Louie Claparols designs). when i saw it, Audrey's face played in my mind that's why when i arrived home, i immediately opened my laptop coz i remember that i have saved some of her pictures on my folder and thought of posting it here.

Supah Love Audrey!! LOL

secrets

i have told so many lies in my life, but if there is one truth that im holding on up to this very moment is that im in love with you and that will stay that way.

this song is for you... i wish you knew i love YOU.. =(

SECRETS (one republic)

 I need another story

Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that I can confess
'Til all my sleeves are stained red
From all the truth that I've said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw me wink, no
I've been on the brink, so
Tell me what you want to hear
Something that will like those ears
Sick of all the insincere
I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time,Don't need another perfect lie
Don't care if critics ever jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away
My God
Amazing that we got this far
It's like we're chasing all those stars
Driving shiny big black cars
And everyday I see the news,
all the problems that we could solve
And when a situation rises,
just write it into an album
Seen it straight to gold
I don't really like my flow, no, so
Tell me what you want to hear
Something that will like those ears
Sick of all the insincere
I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time,Don't need another perfect lie
Don't care if critics ever jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away
Oh, got no reason, got not shame
Got no family I can blame
Just don't let me disappear
I'mma tell you everything
So tell me what you want to hear
Something that will like those ears
Sick of all the insincere
I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time,Don't need another perfect lie
Don't care if critics ever jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away
So tell me what you want to hear
Something that will like those ears
Sick of all the insincere
I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time,Don't need another perfect lie
Don't care if critics ever jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away
All my secrets away,All my secrets away

mine

March is my month...

a few months back, i was talking to my friend Caan, she said 'January is mine since its my birthday month' and i replied 'March is all mine'  hahaha... well, the next thing i knew its the first day of my month...

on the 18th, ill be celebrating my 34th birthday. i usually do it with a theme, but a few years back when i started thinking that maybe i do not need that much of a celebration since im not getting any younger.

i remember, 'P' said ''i really cant get the logic why you bother so much about your birthday e pwede namang dinner at inuman lang''. now, looking back 'yeah maybe he's right!' kase people who'll attend the party wont really remember the party itself but the fun they had on your party.

so since 2009 i always spend my birthday with just my closest friends, friends and people who touched my heart during the years passed....

if you would ask me my favorite birthday celebration was in 2007 when my friend 'M' surprised me in the office with an unexpected person he invited to come (well, he forced him hahah), i was still in a relationship with 'P' during that time. before i left home, 'P' said that he wont be able to join me and my office friends because he had to run some errands for his mum, i said ok though i was really sad not to spend that day with him.

when i stepped into the office, 'M' noticed that i was not in the mood, he asked me why, but i didnt say anything. suddenly, out of nowhere, he asked me for 'P's number, i gave it to him with no questions asked since i was still thinking of 'P', not knowing that he would text him and asked to come to the celebration after office hours.

a few minutes before we left the office 'M' said 'there's someone waiting for you downstairs' i said 'who??' and thought he was joking, sabi nya 'basta baba ka nalang'... so i went downstairs, when i opened the door there was him...'P' greeting me 'happy birthday' with his big smile... it almost brought me into tears, but i didnt wanna ruin the moment with my dramas so i went to hug him and said thank you.

(sigh)... those were the days... oh well!

im wondering what surprises i might get this year... hmmm or would there be any?? =)

prom

reading  through The Skinny Blog (forever21), i saw their feature about Prom-worthy dresses suddenly made me reminisce about my HS Prom too... hahaha.. i remember how bad it was.

i didnt really want to go to the Prom, because our school was requiring us to get a date, a girl-date!! and im totally gay (closeted at that time)... i came from an all-boys catholic school, so basically you have to ask a girl from a different school to come with you and be her date for your pathetic Prom night.... and ill die to do it!

i remember, Mum was asking all our neighbor's daughters if they could join me, there were some who agreed to come, there are some who didnt because of the same reason, they have to attend the Prom on their school at that same night.. but gay as iam, i said ''no Mum, i dont need a date! i can go there alone and ill be fine!''... Mum didnt argue anymore.

night of the Prom, i came to the venue riding a cab alone, my friends were asking "where's your date?" i just said "unfortunately she's really sick this morning so i decided to be alone"... and the whole night i was Bored!!

going back to that night in my mind today made me think that i was so stupid not to enjoy one of the happiest part of my HS life, just because i dont want to date a girl, but instead be a girl dated by someone hehehe..

few days back my bestfriend Aj asked me to pick a dress for her sister's Prom and do her make-up too, i said to myself "wow eto na naman, hinahunt ako ng JS Prom kase hindi ko inenjoy".. but seeing her sister loved the dress i picked made me realized 'maybe i wasnt really meant for Proms, iam made to be the stylist for Proms!...

iam a Prom Queen in my own way! =)

scarred

since its still the love month, i decided  to write a post about two people close to my heart, not only because they are my friends, but also because i witnessed their cute but complicated love story...

it started when me and my bestfriend Shae resigned in our jobs and opted to accept the offer of another company in Makati. I was a day ahead to start training than Shae, so basically ive already met JC, he's the type of guy that you'll be annoyed once you see him.. he has this sense of humor that not all people could understand and quite 'mayabang' too.

on the second day, Shae came in, since there's no seat available beside me for her to use, she decided to sit behind me where JC was seated too. that training was really fun, JC was one of the reasons why it wasnt so boring, he always have some 'hirit' that you cant help but laugh once you hear it, he was also starting to tease Shae that time, but knowing Shae, she wouldnt care and just laugh at him.

while on training, Shae was on a rocky relationship too with her then-husband 'A'. she experienced abuse from him even physically, but still trying her best to work it out for her two kids. Not known to us, JC was on the exact same situation with his then-live-in partner 'B', where he also has two kids.

even when both was on a chaotic relationship with their respected significant others, life goes on for them. training was over and we were divided into two teams.. i was with another team along with JC, but that's no problem because we were just seperated by our computer dividers so it feels like nothing happened. Shae was seated across JC and me behind him, so i witnessed how he was always teasing her, which i thought at that time was his way of courting her... JC would always make her laugh with his line "Tara mag-syotaan na lang tayo"..and that is where it all started.

i started noticing that there were times when Shae wasnt able to go to work and JC would be absent too, which later explained to me and to our friends that they were together on that day since Shae was having an altercation with 'A' and needs company and a shoulder to cry on... and at that time they were starting a complicated relationship that was unbeknownst to us her friends... but of course eventually she admitted it.

a few weeks after, unexpected things happened at the office, JC resigned, and Shae followed-suit. during this time too, JC thought he found his new love and Shae left 'A' because the physical abuse was something that she couldnt take anymore.. they started to live together away from all the things that stole happiness from them.

they thought everything was smooth-sailing for them until 'A' started to bother Shae again with annoying text messages and trying to get back with her, not only that 'A' contacted JC's ex 'B' to make it worst... there were times then when Shae almost gave-up with their relationship because 'A' was also using their two kids as an alibi to make her come home again and Shae's mom was now involved to confront JC and show her 'disgusto' to him for her daughter.

luckily, they all survived it... 'A' accepted the fact that Shae is now happy, they made arrangements for the kids and tried to be civil as much as possible, her mom now understood that they're inseperable and learned to accept JC, though there are things that still bothers them once in a while but nothing could seperate hearts that are meant to be together.

until now, JC and Shae are still together living a quiet life, im sure that they do experience some problems along the way of their journey but that would be nothing from what they have experienced before and they would easily get away from it...

to my dearest friends JC and Shae, i wish you all the best and i know that this bond will last forever as long as God is in the center of your relationship...

Love, love, love

confused

argh!!! here i go again with one of my sleepless nights... but this time around is different, not caused by my usual caffeine indulgence during the afternoon, but of certain things that has been happening for the past weeks,... iam really confused...

HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!

overwhelmed

i would just like to dedicate this post to one of my bestfriends AJ Rubio to thank him for doing me such a big favor, i dont wanna go into details of it, but AJ, you know what i mean... thank you is such a small word to show how much i appreciate what you did. Salamat Teh!

rendezvous

iam an accidental Creative Consultant... Really!

it all happened  a few weeks back when Gel, a friend of mine asked me to do her make-up for a photoshoot that she set along with her friend Nel, Well, wala na kong nagawa kahiyaan nadin kase walang gagawa nun for her, fortunately Nel liked it and asked me if i could do Styling for his photoshoots and at the same time if i could also design a studio for him for the current project he's doing, without hesitation in mind i said 'YES'... though i know that experience-wise, i dont have it, i dont even have an idea on how to start designing a studio with such a little time... whew! too much pressure!

But i guess it paid-off.. here are some of the processed photos of my accidental new career hehhehe

more photos to be posted once forwarded to me.... lovin' it!!!

bataan

ahhh summer... yeah!

i can almost taste the sun's rays everytime it touches my skin... mainit na naman..whew!

here's my welcome to Summer with my friends in Parmata Beach in Bataan..

hmmm... lovin' the sand, the heat of the sun, and the booze...

iam officially Summer's Son...

     Wait for us BALER.... we'll be there soon...

swell

have you heard of the saying 'all swell that ends well'? hahaha
i guess too many times huh... well ako rin, as a matter of fact, hindi ako naniniwala sa kasabihan na yan, in my opinion kase, once a situation became really worst and especially pag nasira na ang friendship, wala na akong nakikitang dahilan para makipagayos or even talk to that person...

but i was wrong... almost 9years ago, i had a dear friend who was once really close to my heart, he's one of the people that i think i wont be able to forget for the rest of my life, masasabi kong malaki ang naging parte nya sa buhay at pagkatao ko... we've been really good friends, laging masaya mga trip namen noon, kahit puro kagaguhan nadin minsan.

i thought we would stay that way, but of course, there are things that na beyond our control, so eventually nagkaroon kame ng altercation, then it went to a fight, and all of a sudden yung magandang samahan na i thought would really last, nawala nalang bigla.

i remember, after na mangyari ang mga bagay na yun, everytime we would bump into each other, it seems like hindi kame magkakilala, walang pansinan, walang imikan, kahit magtinginan, Wala!...

since we belong to the same Barkada, our friends we're trying to fix things for us, pero of course, ma-pride kame pareho, so walang nangyayari, nasayang lang lahat ng efforts ng friends namen na pagbatiin kami ulit.

8 years had past, wala kameng naging balita sa isat-isa, aside from those things na naririnig namen from our friends....

late last year, i recieved a text message from one of our friends, saying, 'uy mag-get together naman tayong magkakaibigan, its been a long time na din since we saw each other, let's catch-up!'... without hesitation, i said 'yes'

syempre naman, namiss ko na din ang inuman at lahat ng kulitan kasama sila, unbeknownst to me, Kim will be joining us on that day... a few hours before meeting my friends, i was still at the office, when i recieved a call coming from a number not registered in my phonebook... bumulaga sakin ang 'hello Mickoy, kamusta naman'?

at that very moment, i knew whom that voice was coming from, sya na nga yun... si Kim, suddenly, parang katulad nalang ulit ng dati yung takbo ng conversation namen, he said 'o anung time ka pupunta? bilisan mo ha! san ba magkikita-kita?'

i remember, i was very excited to meet, not only the Gang, but of course him.. not because of any other reason, but because, after i ended our phone conversation, naalala kong birthday nya a few days back, and i want to greet him personally...

natapos ang gabing yun ng masaya, bumalik lang ulit kame sa pagkabata na parang walang nagyari, at hindi kame naghiwa-hiwalay. medyo matindi ang gabing yun, madami kaming napagusapan, and at the same time, nakapag-sorry na kame sa lahat ng mga dapat naming ika-Sorry...

after that night, medyo nawala ulit ang communication namen, pare-pareho kase kaming busy, and no matter how hard we tried to fix our schedules for us to meet again, hindi nangyayari,...

until tonight,... i was browsing through old pictures that ive uploaded in my Facebook account, when suddenly, naisipan kong mang-usisa ng status ng mga friends ko at magcomment na rin.

incidentally, Kim was also logged-in and just updated his status... ni-like ko ang status nya not knowing that he would comment on that,.. a few minutes after, on my notifications, i saw he commented on his own status...he said 'ayos mike, musta na?'... i said 'ayus naman' and then dun na nagsimula ang mahaba naming conversation ulit tungkol sa kung anu-ano lang, just like the way it used to be...

nakakatuwang isipin na kahit na maraming nangyari, maraming gulo, we managed to keep the friendship kahit papano... of course, i would not expect us to be as close as we used to but then its really nice to know that i still have a friend in him, and him, in me...for sure...

To you Kim...

thank you, this post is solely dedicated to you and to the friendship youve shared to me.... maraming maraming salamat =)

last night my friend Rodge asked me 'have you heard of Mike Posner?' i said 'nope! not yet why? then he said 'magYoutube ka hanapin mo yung videos nya, he's cute!'...

well, true enough he really is cute! i listened to some of his songs last night and i fell in love particularly with this one...

im a big fan now... hahaha

dust

yesterday was really fun, i got to experience one thing that ive been wanting to do. i was able to act as a 'stylist' (ehem! ehhee) for a photoshoot of my friends Val and Gel. together with Gel's photographer friend Nel, we went to the very dusty road of Coastal in Paranaque (not to mention, mabaho dun sa lugar)

but despite of the dust and the unpleasant smell i enjoyed the dry-run of this photoshoot, we did an occular and trial shoot for the main photo session on Sunday. here are some of the photos that i edited, thanks to Nel Gel and Val for allowing me to do it:

and since i love monochrome photos, i also did some in black and white to add drama.....

this is my personal favorite (very twilight hehe)

 

id love to do this again... uber excited for Sunday!!! =)

isaw

im not a big fan of isaw especially pag chicken, but if its pork, go ako! but still there are times kase that im hesitant to buy kase feeling ko madumi or hindi masyadong maganda ang pagkaka-marinade sa kanila.

but there's this BBq place inside the village of Pilar in Las Pinas that i thought deserves a space in my humble blog. they have the best pork isaw, this was introduced to me by my friend and constant drinking buddy Gel, kase its a block away lang from their house where i recently always hang-out...

hmmm... a foodtrip must-try!

i swear! once you tasted it, babalik-balikan mu sya!! =)

lovin' this song.... whew!

I may burn out like a candle and
I may pass away
I may fall just like a shooting star
my heart will stay
I’ll be yours until forever,
forever I’ll be true to the promise
I have made from the day that
I found you
forever youre in my heart
even if were apart

I say, forever I’ll be yours
forever I love you
I say, forever I’ll be yours
forever I love you
my love will never fade away
even if I’ll die and
I will love you until the end of time
even without your smile

So help me please I beg you
don’t walk away I need you
just stay with me and be by my side
take my hand and will work it out

Unti,l forever I’ll be yours
forever I love you
I say, forever I’ll be yours
forever I’ll be true
my love will never fade away
even if I’ll die and
I will love you until the end of time
even without your smile

So help me please I beg you
to stay....

feb

hmmmm.. love month has arrived...

when we were kids at school, every valentine's day, im sure that we were asked by our teachers to make a Valentine Card and give it to someone on the 14th.. syempre ikaw naman bilang bata, susunod ka. i remember, ang lagi kong binibigyan ng card ko noon was my bestfriend John...

walang malisya! wala akong gusto sa kanya, its just that, during that time, i thought, no one would appreciate the card that ive made than my bestfriend and seatmate at lunch buddy na rin.

while growing up as a teenager, pag valentine's parang laging may pressure... i used to go to a catholic 'all boys' school kase, and that time, wala pang nakakaalam na lalaki din ang gusto ko.. the funny thing was, my classmates would ask me 'uy sinong chick date mu sa valentines ha?'... sa isip-isip ko lang 'anu ka ba?! kaw ang gusto kong date, payag ka?' haahahha...

after HS, i went to a computer school for a while, nakilala ko dun si 'J' and eventually siya na din ang naging first boyfriend ko (that was when i was 17), sabi ko sa sarili ko nun 'im not gonna be loser on valentines day, may BF na yata ako', but sadly after 8months of being together, we broke up...and it was the day before valentine's...how pathetic.... =(

marami pang naging relasyon after nun, may matagal, may maikli until dumating si 'P'.... i thought 'this is it'... anything and everything that im looking for in a guy nasa kanya na. sya nadin ang pinakamatagal kong naging karelasyon at syempre ang pinakaminahal ko...lahat ng valentines that ive spent with him was really memorable, lahat masaya, lahat kakaiba... but as Barbara Streisand's song says 'some good things never last'...ayun... nawala din.

after that, pag valentines ang lagi ko ng ka-date are my friends... at take note: hindi lang ito single friends, pati ang mga jowa nila, bitbit din namen... i told myself 'why am i happier whenever i spend my valentine's with friends than with a significant other?'... well i guess its meant to be like that... kase when you think of it, ang friends pag after nyo magdinner at magbayad ng kinain ninyo, walang guilty feeling, kase alam mo na hindi mo naman sila makakaaway one of these days because of jealousy dahil nakita mo silang may kasamang iba sa mall o kaya ay may katext na iba, jowa lang ang gumagawa nun... diba??

mas masarap nga ka-date ang friends kase habangbuhay sa kanila ka lang at sila sayo lang din... wala kang kaagaw....

now im thinking, if i could go back to my childhood at papagawain ulit ako ng V-day Card, laging sa friends ko nalang ibibigay... because afterall, when your relationship with your partner, your bf/gf, your wife/hubby ended... sa friends lang din ang takbo mu... kaya they deserve all the cards that they could get. and more...

love your friends.

rewind

i have sooo many friends during my college years and lucky enough that until now i still have my communication lines open with them, its not as often though as we used to have it, but the thing is, we know to ourselves that we'll remain friends no matter what.

i remember, a friend told me, 'your real friends aren't the ones you spend the most time with, but the ones you share the most memories with'.. so kahit hindi kayo madalas magkita at magsama-sama, alam mong may tatakbuhan ka pag kailangan mo sila, and you know to yourself that you'll do the same thing for them...

yesterday, i was able to share a beatiful night full of fun and reminiscing with two of my greatest college friends Ruth and Jeb, matagal-tagal nadin since the last time i  went out with them. And kagaya nga ng inaasahan, syempre maraming asaran, may pikunan, but it all went so well naman, nakakamiss ang buhay estudyante.... =) sarap i-rewind yung panahon na kahit wala kaming pera and we share a plate of pork sisig lang at maraming kanin, Solve pa din kame.. hehehhe

to my friends Ruth and Jeb and to all of my other friends, thank you for staying after all these years.. to y'all who made me laugh and smile and believed the life is worthwhile despite the tough times, thank you for everything... that's coming from a friend who would do the same thing for you all... love you guys!

vodka

'anung problema mo? bakit ang payat payat mu?'.... that was the question that cracked me off during the first time i landed my feet on my friend Gel's place, that came from her Mum who was too engaged on her DVD marathon of Koreanovelas... hahaha parang may trauma sakin ang question na yun, kase naman si Mudang pinaginteresan kaagad ang manipis kong katawan sa gitna ng pagtutok kay DaoMingXu o kung sino man sya na pinapanood nya during that time heheheh...

last night i had the priviledge to came back to their house, this time kalmado si Mudang at hindi na nagtanong tungkol sa problema ko sa kalusugan ahhaha... i really had fun with Gel last night!....naenjoy ko ang B-Bque na tinitinda ng isang kahanga-hangang deaf and mute na mama, supeeerrr delicioso, no exaggeration..pero i learned an important lesson too...hindi nako iinum ng ANTONOV Vodka!!!

swear!! ikamamatay ko na ang next na pag-inum ko nyan. we ended the night at Starbucks in Northgate sipping our fave blends. thanks again Gel, looking forward to more weekends like this! =)

(pls read Gel's blog: gelliejuicy.tumblr.com)

crown

october 2010 was the last time i had my haircut, in told myself at that time 'this will be my last haircut till my birthday next year (march this yr)'.... so its been 3 months now and only a few more sleeps till my birthday when i decided to cut it again. Haayy hindi ko na naman nagawa!

i want to experience sana, again to have a long hair kase the last time, as far as i could remember, was in college pa... but then the people around me keep telling me 'get a haircut!'... Grrrr... you know how difficult it is for you to do something when you do not have enough support from the people youre close with??? kaasar diba?!

well, wala na akong nagawa!.. i had a long argument with myself last night before going to bed 'shall i do it?' or 'shall i dont?' hehehe... eventually nakatulugan ko nalang ang pagiisip about it. earlier this morning, i told myself 'ok ill go to the barbershop and get it done'

and here it is:

                      
                         its my first time to do 'mohawk' and im lovin' it!!

badtrip

what do i normally do when im in a bad mood?

there are days when you dont feel like dressing up,going out, interacting with people, answering your phone and text msgs or simply you are too lazy to do anything at all, right?

well here are the things that ive tried and tested to make my 'badtrip' day go away:

- first, eat a good breakfast. i usually eat a lot during the morning, then less towards the end of the day, coz basically we need more energy at the start of our day than by the end of it. Lafang galore pag morning!, nakakawala ng bad mood yan, kase pag ang tao gutom mas magiinit ang ulo, my favorite is peanut butter with jelly sandwich then mango juice or fried rice with danggit na may suka, pagkatapos sabayan mo ng yosi after. Perfect!

- look for a comfortable outfit and shoes. common sense, hindi na nga maganda ang araw mo, hindi pa kumportable suot mo e di mas lalong badtrip yun!.. i go for my knits na manipis lang ang tela kase comfortable or a really light shirt to go with my cardigan and shorts.. and my favorite shoes, my battered Gola slip-ons

- drink coffee. they say na coffee daw eh mas nakakainit ng ulo, i guess not for me, kase pagbadtrip ka, mababa ang energy mo so to boost it, coffee is the answer, try a Caramel Frap from Gloria Jeans (my fave) or Green tea Latte from Starbucks.

- look at your old photographs (i.e baby pics, HS Prom pics etc), nakakatawa yun. it is always nice to reminisce, especially pag nakikita mo na mukha ka palang tanga nung Punks ka pa nung HS or when you see pictures of your friends you havent seen in a long time. who knows?, baka sipagin ka pang hanapin sila sa Twitter or FB and catch up with them.

- read a book or a magazine. when im sad i always read the novel of H.F Saint entitled 'Memoirs of an Invisible Man'... may mga nakakatuwang moments kase ang book na yun kaya i always keep it handy...or i read the back issues of Reader's Digest especially ang 'All in a Day's Work', nakakatawa ang mga jokes and stories dun.

- eat 'dirty ice cream'... why? kase nakakatuwang isipin na kakain ka ulit ng isa sa mga pagkaing kinakain mo nung bata ka pa. think of your childhood friends na uhugin while licking your ice cream, masaya yun!

- and lastly, try to smile.try to make another person's day brighter by complimenting them, a simple 'Ganda ng shoes mo' or 'Love your bag' can make a big difference, at pag napasaya mo ang ibang tao, mas doble ang balik ng saya sayo...

                                                     SMILE =)