Adrian my BFWB, has been the "hiding inside myselF"
queen for more than 10 years now..
I was always telling him that it feels so good
when your family know that you're green-blooded, it helps
you to have a peaceful mind, and at the same time you're
free to do whatever you want to do without having to
think that someone might see you.
I can imagine how hard it is for Aeds to do it
because he came from a very conservative family, aside
from the fact that he is the only child, and to have a
bussiness-minded, focused, and goal-oriented dad like the
one he has, coming out might be something that you have to think
a hundred-million times over.
The reason why i wrote this post is because, I
received a call from Aeds saying that he's finally
decided and he's gonna do it. His dad will arrive from
the States for the holidays, and he thinks that this
might be the best time to do it because his mom wont be
able to make it, (he's actually not so fond of his mom)
so it'll be easier for him to let it all out, and it'll be
his chance to have a heart to heart talk to his dear father.
I was about to scream in excitement when i heard about
his decision..... B U T!!!!!!!!!!
he immediately followed that up with something like
"Gusto ko andun ka pag nangyari yun, kasi gusto ko na rin
sabihin kay dad yung sa'tin, kasi diba nakilala ka na
niya, alam lang nya barkada tayo?"
After hearing that, i was really furious, it feels like
i want to throw him "pacquiao" punches (good thing we're
just talking over the phone, pero kung hindi.....)
But what i said was...
"punyeta kang bakla kahhh!!, gusto mo pa ko ipahamak, e pano
kung jombagin ka ng tatay mu, e di pati ako na-kyombag!!!"
and he said "cge na pls.. kasi ill have the lakas ng loob lang
pag andun ka eh!!!
then i said "no way, deadma!"
then i turn off my phone...
I sat on my bed after that horrible phone call, a lot
of thoughts came into mind.
One of them was, maybe i do not really understand how it is
for Aeds to tell his dad about his gender preferrence
because i personally didnt go through all of that..
I didnt have my sit-down talk to either mom or dad about my
"kabaklaan" because our family produces gays and lesbians,
starting from my two "tibo" aunts and "bakla" cousins, so,
in short, every gender is accepted in the family..
I gave it a thought..
what if i accompany Aeds to the most awaited
gay confession of the year?!!
Will his dad throw all his balikbayan boxes to our
face?!!
its really hard to tell how to estimate his dad's temper,
because during our on and off BFWB-ship, i remember seeing
him for only three times, also we have'nt spoken to each other
aside from the usual "goodevening po" or "hello po", nothing
else...
That thought bothered me for like 3hrs..
so i told myself "im'na have to call Aeds"...
So i did... and this is what i told him..
"sure ka na ba? kelan mu ba sasabihin?!! Ok.. sige
payag na ko, i'll be with you, pag sinabi mu yon, pero
pwede ba wag na natin sabihin yung tungkol sa'ten, coz i
think that's gonna be too much for your dad to handle, right?
then he said "ok sige na nga, tsaka baka ma-grossed out din
si dad... O panu, we're good, sa dec 18 ko sasabihin, para
makapagpahinga muna sya..
i said "ok, ill wait, paghahandaan ko yan! haaay!"
I dont know what will happen...
hope it turns out good, coz if not ill kill
you Aeds...
I'll post about it, once it happened.
Goodluck to Us!!!
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