Monday

prom

reading  through The Skinny Blog (forever21), i saw their feature about Prom-worthy dresses suddenly made me reminisce about my HS Prom too... hahaha.. i remember how bad it was.

i didnt really want to go to the Prom, because our school was requiring us to get a date, a girl-date!! and im totally gay (closeted at that time)... i came from an all-boys catholic school, so basically you have to ask a girl from a different school to come with you and be her date for your pathetic Prom night.... and ill die to do it!

i remember, Mum was asking all our neighbor's daughters if they could join me, there were some who agreed to come, there are some who didnt because of the same reason, they have to attend the Prom on their school at that same night.. but gay as iam, i said ''no Mum, i dont need a date! i can go there alone and ill be fine!''... Mum didnt argue anymore.

night of the Prom, i came to the venue riding a cab alone, my friends were asking "where's your date?" i just said "unfortunately she's really sick this morning so i decided to be alone"... and the whole night i was Bored!!

going back to that night in my mind today made me think that i was so stupid not to enjoy one of the happiest part of my HS life, just because i dont want to date a girl, but instead be a girl dated by someone hehehe..

few days back my bestfriend Aj asked me to pick a dress for her sister's Prom and do her make-up too, i said to myself "wow eto na naman, hinahunt ako ng JS Prom kase hindi ko inenjoy".. but seeing her sister loved the dress i picked made me realized 'maybe i wasnt really meant for Proms, iam made to be the stylist for Proms!...

iam a Prom Queen in my own way! =)

Sunday

scarred

since its still the love month, i decided  to write a post about two people close to my heart, not only because they are my friends, but also because i witnessed their cute but complicated love story...


it started when me and my bestfriend Shae resigned in our jobs and opted to accept the offer of another company in Makati. I was a day ahead to start training than Shae, so basically ive already met JC, he's the type of guy that you'll be annoyed once you see him.. he has this sense of humor that not all people could understand and quite 'mayabang' too.

on the second day, Shae came in, since there's no seat available beside me for her to use, she decided to sit behind me where JC was seated too. that training was really fun, JC was one of the reasons why it wasnt so boring, he always have some 'hirit' that you cant help but laugh once you hear it, he was also starting to tease Shae that time, but knowing Shae, she wouldnt care and just laugh at him.

while on training, Shae was on a rocky relationship too with her then-husband 'A'. she experienced abuse from him even physically, but still trying her best to work it out for her two kids. Not known to us, JC was on the exact same situation with his then-live-in partner 'B', where he also has two kids.

even when both was on a chaotic relationship with their respected significant others, life goes on for them. training was over and we were divided into two teams.. i was with another team along with JC, but that's no problem because we were just seperated by our computer dividers so it feels like nothing happened. Shae was seated across JC and me behind him, so i witnessed how he was always teasing her, which i thought at that time was his way of courting her... JC would always make her laugh with his line "Tara mag-syotaan na lang tayo"..and that is where it all started.

i started noticing that there were times when Shae wasnt able to go to work and JC would be absent too, which later explained to me and to our friends that they were together on that day since Shae was having an altercation with 'A' and needs company and a shoulder to cry on... and at that time they were starting a complicated relationship that was unbeknownst to us her friends... but of course eventually she admitted it.

a few weeks after, unexpected things happened at the office, JC resigned, and Shae followed-suit. during this time too, JC thought he found his new love and Shae left 'A' because the physical abuse was something that she couldnt take anymore.. they started to live together away from all the things that stole happiness from them.

they thought everything was smooth-sailing for them until 'A' started to bother Shae again with annoying text messages and trying to get back with her, not only that 'A' contacted JC's ex 'B' to make it worst... there were times then when Shae almost gave-up with their relationship because 'A' was also using their two kids as an alibi to make her come home again and Shae's mom was now involved to confront JC and show her 'disgusto' to him for her daughter.

luckily, they all survived it... 'A' accepted the fact that Shae is now happy, they made arrangements for the kids and tried to be civil as much as possible, her mom now understood that they're inseperable and learned to accept JC, though there are things that still bothers them once in a while but nothing could seperate hearts that are meant to be together.

until now, JC and Shae are still together living a quiet life, im sure that they do experience some problems along the way of their journey but that would be nothing from what they have experienced before and they would easily get away from it...

to my dearest friends JC and Shae, i wish you all the best and i know that this bond will last forever as long as God is in the center of your relationship...


Love, love, love

confused

argh!!! here i go again with one of my sleepless nights... but this time around is different, not caused by my usual caffeine indulgence during the afternoon, but of certain things that has been happening for the past weeks,... iam really confused...

HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!

overwhelmed



i would just like to dedicate this post to one of my bestfriends AJ Rubio to thank him for doing me such a big favor, i dont wanna go into details of it, but AJ, you know what i mean... thank you is such a small word to show how much i appreciate what you did. Salamat Teh!

Monday

rendezvous

iam an accidental Creative Consultant... Really!

it all happened  a few weeks back when Gel, a friend of mine asked me to do her make-up for a photoshoot that she set along with her friend Nel, Well, wala na kong nagawa kahiyaan nadin kase walang gagawa nun for her, fortunately Nel liked it and asked me if i could do Styling for his photoshoots and at the same time if i could also design a studio for him for the current project he's doing, without hesitation in mind i said 'YES'... though i know that experience-wise, i dont have it, i dont even have an idea on how to start designing a studio with such a little time... whew! too much pressure!

But i guess it paid-off.. here are some of the processed photos of my accidental new career hehhehe




more photos to be posted once forwarded to me.... lovin' it!!!



bataan

ahhh summer... yeah!

i can almost taste the sun's rays everytime it touches my skin... mainit na naman..whew!

here's my welcome to Summer with my friends in Parmata Beach in Bataan..

hmmm... lovin' the sand, the heat of the sun, and the booze...

iam officially Summer's Son...






     Wait for us BALER.... we'll be there soon...

swell

have you heard of the saying 'all swell that ends well'? hahaha
i guess too many times huh... well ako rin, as a matter of fact, hindi ako naniniwala sa kasabihan na yan, in my opinion kase, once a situation became really worst and especially pag nasira na ang friendship, wala na akong nakikitang dahilan para makipagayos or even talk to that person...

but i was wrong... almost 9years ago, i had a dear friend who was once really close to my heart, he's one of the people that i think i wont be able to forget for the rest of my life, masasabi kong malaki ang naging parte nya sa buhay at pagkatao ko... we've been really good friends, laging masaya mga trip namen noon, kahit puro kagaguhan nadin minsan.

i thought we would stay that way, but of course, there are things that na beyond our control, so eventually nagkaroon kame ng altercation, then it went to a fight, and all of a sudden yung magandang samahan na i thought would really last, nawala nalang bigla.

i remember, after na mangyari ang mga bagay na yun, everytime we would bump into each other, it seems like hindi kame magkakilala, walang pansinan, walang imikan, kahit magtinginan, Wala!...

since we belong to the same Barkada, our friends we're trying to fix things for us, pero of course, ma-pride kame pareho, so walang nangyayari, nasayang lang lahat ng efforts ng friends namen na pagbatiin kami ulit.

8 years had past, wala kameng naging balita sa isat-isa, aside from those things na naririnig namen from our friends....

late last year, i recieved a text message from one of our friends, saying, 'uy mag-get together naman tayong magkakaibigan, its been a long time na din since we saw each other, let's catch-up!'... without hesitation, i said 'yes'

syempre naman, namiss ko na din ang inuman at lahat ng kulitan kasama sila, unbeknownst to me, Kim will be joining us on that day... a few hours before meeting my friends, i was still at the office, when i recieved a call coming from a number not registered in my phonebook... bumulaga sakin ang 'hello Mickoy, kamusta naman'?

at that very moment, i knew whom that voice was coming from, sya na nga yun... si Kim, suddenly, parang katulad nalang ulit ng dati yung takbo ng conversation namen, he said 'o anung time ka pupunta? bilisan mo ha! san ba magkikita-kita?'

i remember, i was very excited to meet, not only the Gang, but of course him.. not because of any other reason, but because, after i ended our phone conversation, naalala kong birthday nya a few days back, and i want to greet him personally...

natapos ang gabing yun ng masaya, bumalik lang ulit kame sa pagkabata na parang walang nagyari, at hindi kame naghiwa-hiwalay. medyo matindi ang gabing yun, madami kaming napagusapan, and at the same time, nakapag-sorry na kame sa lahat ng mga dapat naming ika-Sorry...

after that night, medyo nawala ulit ang communication namen, pare-pareho kase kaming busy, and no matter how hard we tried to fix our schedules for us to meet again, hindi nangyayari,...

until tonight,... i was browsing through old pictures that ive uploaded in my Facebook account, when suddenly, naisipan kong mang-usisa ng status ng mga friends ko at magcomment na rin.

incidentally, Kim was also logged-in and just updated his status... ni-like ko ang status nya not knowing that he would comment on that,.. a few minutes after, on my notifications, i saw he commented on his own status...he said 'ayos mike, musta na?'... i said 'ayus naman' and then dun na nagsimula ang mahaba naming conversation ulit tungkol sa kung anu-ano lang, just like the way it used to be...

nakakatuwang isipin na kahit na maraming nangyari, maraming gulo, we managed to keep the friendship kahit papano... of course, i would not expect us to be as close as we used to but then its really nice to know that i still have a friend in him, and him, in me...for sure...

To you Kim...


thank you, this post is solely dedicated to you and to the friendship youve shared to me.... maraming maraming salamat =)

Sunday

last night my friend Rodge asked me 'have you heard of Mike Posner?' i said 'nope! not yet why? then he said 'magYoutube ka hanapin mo yung videos nya, he's cute!'...

well, true enough he really is cute! i listened to some of his songs last night and i fell in love particularly with this one...

im a big fan now... hahaha

Saturday

dust

yesterday was really fun, i got to experience one thing that ive been wanting to do. i was able to act as a 'stylist' (ehem! ehhee) for a photoshoot of my friends Val and Gel. together with Gel's photographer friend Nel, we went to the very dusty road of Coastal in Paranaque (not to mention, mabaho dun sa lugar)

but despite of the dust and the unpleasant smell i enjoyed the dry-run of this photoshoot, we did an occular and trial shoot for the main photo session on Sunday. here are some of the photos that i edited, thanks to Nel Gel and Val for allowing me to do it:



and since i love monochrome photos, i also did some in black and white to add drama.....



this is my personal favorite (very twilight hehe)

 


id love to do this again... uber excited for Sunday!!! =)

Friday

isaw

im not a big fan of isaw especially pag chicken, but if its pork, go ako! but still there are times kase that im hesitant to buy kase feeling ko madumi or hindi masyadong maganda ang pagkaka-marinade sa kanila.

but there's this BBq place inside the village of Pilar in Las Pinas that i thought deserves a space in my humble blog. they have the best pork isaw, this was introduced to me by my friend and constant drinking buddy Gel, kase its a block away lang from their house where i recently always hang-out...

hmmm... a foodtrip must-try!


i swear! once you tasted it, babalik-balikan mu sya!! =)

Thursday

lovin' this song.... whew!



I may burn out like a candle and
I may pass away
I may fall just like a shooting star
my heart will stay
I’ll be yours until forever,
forever I’ll be true to the promise
I have made from the day that
I found you
forever youre in my heart
even if were apart

I say, forever I’ll be yours
forever I love you
I say, forever I’ll be yours
forever I love you
my love will never fade away
even if I’ll die and
I will love you until the end of time
even without your smile

So help me please I beg you
don’t walk away I need you
just stay with me and be by my side
take my hand and will work it out

Unti,l forever I’ll be yours
forever I love you
I say, forever I’ll be yours
forever I’ll be true
my love will never fade away
even if I’ll die and
I will love you until the end of time
even without your smile

So help me please I beg you
to stay....

Wednesday

feb

hmmmm.. love month has arrived...



when we were kids at school, every valentine's day, im sure that we were asked by our teachers to make a Valentine Card and give it to someone on the 14th.. syempre ikaw naman bilang bata, susunod ka. i remember, ang lagi kong binibigyan ng card ko noon was my bestfriend John...

walang malisya! wala akong gusto sa kanya, its just that, during that time, i thought, no one would appreciate the card that ive made than my bestfriend and seatmate at lunch buddy na rin.

while growing up as a teenager, pag valentine's parang laging may pressure... i used to go to a catholic 'all boys' school kase, and that time, wala pang nakakaalam na lalaki din ang gusto ko.. the funny thing was, my classmates would ask me 'uy sinong chick date mu sa valentines ha?'... sa isip-isip ko lang 'anu ka ba?! kaw ang gusto kong date, payag ka?' haahahha...

after HS, i went to a computer school for a while, nakilala ko dun si 'J' and eventually siya na din ang naging first boyfriend ko (that was when i was 17), sabi ko sa sarili ko nun 'im not gonna be loser on valentines day, may BF na yata ako', but sadly after 8months of being together, we broke up...and it was the day before valentine's...how pathetic.... =(

marami pang naging relasyon after nun, may matagal, may maikli until dumating si 'P'.... i thought 'this is it'... anything and everything that im looking for in a guy nasa kanya na. sya nadin ang pinakamatagal kong naging karelasyon at syempre ang pinakaminahal ko...lahat ng valentines that ive spent with him was really memorable, lahat masaya, lahat kakaiba... but as Barbara Streisand's song says 'some good things never last'...ayun... nawala din.

after that, pag valentines ang lagi ko ng ka-date are my friends... at take note: hindi lang ito single friends, pati ang mga jowa nila, bitbit din namen... i told myself 'why am i happier whenever i spend my valentine's with friends than with a significant other?'... well i guess its meant to be like that... kase when you think of it, ang friends pag after nyo magdinner at magbayad ng kinain ninyo, walang guilty feeling, kase alam mo na hindi mo naman sila makakaaway one of these days because of jealousy dahil nakita mo silang may kasamang iba sa mall o kaya ay may katext na iba, jowa lang ang gumagawa nun... diba??

mas masarap nga ka-date ang friends kase habangbuhay sa kanila ka lang at sila sayo lang din... wala kang kaagaw....

now im thinking, if i could go back to my childhood at papagawain ulit ako ng V-day Card, laging sa friends ko nalang ibibigay... because afterall, when your relationship with your partner, your bf/gf, your wife/hubby ended... sa friends lang din ang takbo mu... kaya they deserve all the cards that they could get. and more...

love your friends.

rewind

i have sooo many friends during my college years and lucky enough that until now i still have my communication lines open with them, its not as often though as we used to have it, but the thing is, we know to ourselves that we'll remain friends no matter what.

i remember, a friend told me, 'your real friends aren't the ones you spend the most time with, but the ones you share the most memories with'.. so kahit hindi kayo madalas magkita at magsama-sama, alam mong may tatakbuhan ka pag kailangan mo sila, and you know to yourself that you'll do the same thing for them...

yesterday, i was able to share a beatiful night full of fun and reminiscing with two of my greatest college friends Ruth and Jeb, matagal-tagal nadin since the last time i  went out with them. And kagaya nga ng inaasahan, syempre maraming asaran, may pikunan, but it all went so well naman, nakakamiss ang buhay estudyante.... =) sarap i-rewind yung panahon na kahit wala kaming pera and we share a plate of pork sisig lang at maraming kanin, Solve pa din kame.. hehehhe




to my friends Ruth and Jeb and to all of my other friends, thank you for staying after all these years.. to y'all who made me laugh and smile and believed the life is worthwhile despite the tough times, thank you for everything... that's coming from a friend who would do the same thing for you all... love you guys!