no regrets

hahaha..
im laughing my ass out...
iam alone right now, doing nothing..
so napagtripan kong mag-google lang ng
anything.. wala lang..

napagtripan kong i-search ang mga names
ng mga taong kilala ko..
like friends i havent seen for quite sometime now,
classmates from highschool, college, former
officemates, anyone at all..

its funny, coz everytime i would type their names
on the search box, puro mga profiles nila for friendster,
facebook, myspace, blogspot, at kung anu-ano pa ang lumalabas
then.. it came to mind to search for someone na lets just
say an "old friend" back in college.

and i found him.. (im not gonna tell his name)




i viewed his profile from a site (i forgot the name).
natawa lang ako, kasi it took me back to those
days when i was still so into him... grabeeehh..
kakatawa, i realized kasi na there are things
in the past na when you remember, it will make you
burst into a "supeerr halakhak"
but at the same time it will make you feel kind
of a li'l grossed-out, not because you regret those
things, but because of the fact that what you did back
then was really cheesy and corny.... yuccckk talaga.

but then i also realized na he became a part of my past,
and not to mention, i have learned a lot naman from him
and from those experiences i had with him..
no regrets.. though i havent seen him in a while, and
no news of any of his whereabouts, i can feel that he is
happy, and im hoping the best for him wherever he maybe..

anyway... thanks to you!!!

my anthony

i was riding the bus earlier going to work, when i realized na redhot chillipeppers pala yung nasa video board ng bus.... and since im a big fan of anthony kiedis, i was really kilig.. sobra!!

it seems like im back in college again, i remember kasi during that time, sobrang obsessed ako sa kanya.. i was buying their albums, as in all of it, i even memorized each and every song nila in the album, and when i heard that they're going to have their concert here in manila, talagang nag-ipon ako, but unfortunately since hindi ganun kalaki ang allowance ko that time, hindi umabot ang naipon ko.. na-sad lang ako...







and that was the time when i told myself na baka nga i wasnt meant to see him, so gradually nawala yung obsession na yun, until it came to a point na hindi ko na sya talaga crush..

pero sobra yung kanina...
when i saw that concert na pinapalabas sa bus, grabeeeeehhhh!!!
i regret na itinago ko lahat ng cd's and tapes nila, even their videos na nirerecord ko pa from mtv.. kasi i missed those days when i always listen and watch them...

i love anthony talaga... he's like the best ever crush ive ever had in the whole wide world...... wooohoooo.......

i miss mum

these past few days i have been going through some emotional battles.. and during times like these i do miss my mum

mum has not always been a friend to me, in fact there was a time before when i loathed her.. i hated her for being quite strict when it comes to studying,and maybe thats the reason why i didnt took it seriously that time, instead i shifted into different vices, i tried getting drunk each day, there are days when i do not go to school just to be with friends and drink, and worst of all, i tried drugs just to show that i rebel against her.. her being so nosy, of her being so pushy, or her just being the mother that i do not want her to be.

i even tried running away from home for quite a few times before, but mum would always find a way to locate where i am..

but now that i have come at this point in my life where i can say iam more mature, i have come to realize that mum was right, she was always right.

i miss the way she would preach me about things i thought i knew especially now that i do not have anyone to confide to.. i remember, anytime that i would encounter certain problems, mum would always lend her ear to me.. i can tell her anything, even my deepest darkest secrets, and she would listen without any judgment.

how i really wish that mum was here with me right at this very moment, 'cause just her touch, and her reassuring look would make everything alright..

just this weekend, i was able to see mum again but i wasnt able to talk to her about what im feeling, but the mere fact that i was there at her place,was more than enough for my mind to be at ease.

i felt mum's love the moment i step into her doorstep..
i knew mum loves me..
i know...

thanks mum... and i love you too even if i seldom tell you.

10

i am so inspired today and feel so grateful to the people
who made the past year memorable for me...
so i decided to write a post about the ten people who made
my year and here they are...



*raymond rodriguez, dinky soledad, and francis garcia*


my former officemates, they are such fun people to be with,
i dont think i would enjoy my stay at my previous company if not for them..
though it was not that long that ive been with these guys but the joy
of having them as my friends is such a blessing.. thanks guys!


*baby nicolei*


she's the new addition to our family.. may pamangkin na ko (sa pinsan)
actually nicolei pave the way para magkaayos ang mga hindi
magkakabati sa family namen especially my cousin clarie (nicolei's mom)
and my tita maryann, hope she grew up to be a good girl full of hope
and dreams.



*chase wave 39*


kudos to all the boys and girls and not so girls of wave 39
of prime dept.. i am so proud that all of us passed the extremely
"brainbleeding" training, now that we're about to apply what we have
learned, i hope that we'll still be able to incorporate fun in what
we do coz it'll definitely make the job easier for us.




*monica mella*

monique is one of my cousins and i admire her sense of maturity
even at a young age, there are many times na sya pa ang nagsasabi
sa akin ng mga dapat kong gawin. i would personally like to take
my hats off her because of how kind and generous she is to me especially
at times when im having trouble about some things that i should'nt
be bothered with if only i'll do it right from the start.



*clarie mella*


another cousin of mine, last year was memorable for me, clarie, and
monique kasi we were able to experience living away from our families,
we only got each other to lean on, and maybe that was the reason why me
and clarie had some issues that resulted to altercation, but still we
were able to fix it naman, im absolutely happy for her especially now
that she has nicolei in her life, i know that this year will be a good
one for her.


*6 boys from baclaran*


sila yung mga nangholdap sa 'kin nung new year.. maybe you're wondering
kung bakit sila kasama sa list ko... well its because na-realize ko na
nakakaawa ang mga batang ito, malamang nanggaling sila sa mahirap na
pamilya, and ang panghoholdap lang ang way nila para makatulong sa family nila,
im not saying na tamang gawing dahilan ang kahirapan para gumawa ng masama
sa kapwa, but, come to think of it sila ay mga biktima rin, victims of poverty
sabi nga nila. I realized na ganun talaga kahirap ang bansa natin, kaya marami
sa mga kabataan ang ngayon pa lang hindi makapag-aral at dahil doon ay wala
ring magandang oportunidad para sa magandang trabaho. siguro masyado akong naging selfish that time na naholdap ako, sinumpa ko kasi na sana ay mamatay na
ang mga taong ito na gumawa nito sakin, pero i have come to realize na maaaring
hindi rin nila ginusto ang mga ganung bagay, pare-pareho lang kaming biktima
ng pagkakataon, now ive come to forgive them.






*rowell relosa, bryan mendoza, and jimmy pomida*

these guys are my college friends, weve been friends for almost
10 years now.. and ive been through a lot with them, and im telling
you hindi lahat maganda, but the good thing is, we matured together, from
mga away-bata namen nung college until now sa mga konting tampuhan, naaayos
naman namen, we have learned na kasi to accept kung anu anu ang pagkukulang
ng isat isa kaya madali nang intindihin.. kahit hindi kame madalas magkita-kita
nowadays, i know that i'll always have a friend in them at ganun din sila sa 'kin.


*andrew sumang*


my former boss, he kind of became my friend during that time when i was with his team, but sadly, nagkaroon kame ng gap dahil na rin sa trabaho... but then i realized his worth when he resigned and transferred to another company, kasi
nung nagkaroon ako ng bagong boss na e mas balahura, bastos at walang respeto sa ibang tao ang baklang yon.


*my step brothers and sisters in antipolo*


last year ko lang sila lahat nameet, i was thinking na siguro that was the best
time na binigay sa amin but sadly, kung kelan kame nagkakila-kilala tsaka naman
nag-commit ng suicide ang isa kong sister, it was sad coz i wasnt able to get
the chance to know her better, but still im happy that i was able to meet her along with our other siblings.. may she find peace wherever she is right now.


*patrick paolo arganosa*


my bestfriend.. Chog has always been there, i know that sometimes its really
hard for him to understand me or me understanding him... kasi naman im so stubborn and often sinasabihan nya ko ng brat, pero kahit ganun sya at hindi kami lagi
magkasundo, andyan pa rin sya, i know na marami na kong nagawang kasalanan sa kanya
hindi na mabibilang yun.. pero kapag kailangan ko sya andyan lang sya lagi..
maraming salamat sa'yo Chog, i would'nt know how to survive the past year if you
were'nt there.. sana mas marami pang years ang pagsamahan natin, and ill do
anything para lang hindi ka na magalit especially ang mom mo whom i know na
galit sa kin, i hope one of these days i will be able to prove to them na hindi ako masamang tao. and im sorry sa lahat ng nagawa ko.


thanks to you guys... you made my life complicated but fun.

lakwatsa

i have always been a "lakwatsero",god knows since when...
ngayon nga medyo nabawasan na because of my job, medyo mahirap ang
schedule... pero if i do have the time kahit saan nalang, pumupunta ako,
kasi even when my whole body's tired, in a way it ease my weary mind,
parang outlet na rin pag bored or depressed ako about certain things
(especially now!!)

kaya eto ang resulta ng paglalakwatsa ko this weekend lang
with friends... kung saan saan lang...

the mcdonalds commercial that made me cry

have you all seen the new mcdonalds commercial???

grabe it really made me cry... i was watching tv last saturday when i first saw it and it immmediately broke my heart..

here's that TVC... judge it for yourself:

huhuhu =(

bibbo kid

we are finally done with our training for our new account sa office, we we're transferred kasi from a very easy account to a "brainbleeding" one...

so sa graduation rites, meron kameng parang award-giving ceremony, and one of the awards given was "bibbo kid award"... we actually voted for each and every award na ibibigay and then our trainer mike buera will be the one to announce it..

and guess kung kanino napunta ang bibbo award....

SA AKINNNN.... hahhaha...

may certificate pang kasama yan ha eto oh...







hehehe!!!! katawa diba?!!!
but thanks to my wavemates... appreciate it.

near death new year experience

i have never valued life more than ever, but not after my near death experience just this new year....

i was about to go and meet my friends in Makati to say goodbye to 2008, im kinda depressed about certain things so instead of welcoming new year in my mum's house, i decided to go out....

at exactly 9:30pm, i was on my way, i was texting Drea so as to where we're going to meet each other. before i left home my mum even told me "mike makinig ka sa'kin delikado ngayon wag ka na umalis"... but i didnt listen... i told her "ma i need this"... and she said "bahala ka"...

so after 45 mins. i was already in baclaran, waiting for a cab that would take me to ayala, but no drivers would want to waste their time being stuck in the traffic. so after losing my patience, i waited for a bus instead, ive been waiting at the stop for more than 20 mins. along with other people but still there's no bus...

i texted Drea and ask her if there's any other way that i can take on the way to makati without taking the bus or cab... but immediately after i sent the message i felt an arm around my neck and a home-made gun (sumpak) on the left side of my body, i was petrified, i could see that people around me was running away from where i was and no one was willing to help or to call for help, one of my captives said "wag ka nang lumaban" then one of them punch me in the stomach for 3 times (there were 6 of them actually).



i knew in that very moment i was going to die, i can feel the breath of death in my face. i closed my eyes and said to myself "god kaw na bahala"... but after a few seconds i realized i was alone, my captives are running away from me, i was dumbfounded, i then thought that "baka naawa sila at umalis na lang" but then when i started to look for my wallet and cellphone, i do not have it with me anymore... "natangay na nila" was all i could say to myself.

i do not know what to do, i cant think of anything but i know i was thankful to god that im still alive...

the first thing that comes to mind was to call somebody, but i only have 2 cellphone numbers that i memorized and thats my mom's and my bff paolo's number... i chose to call paolo coz i was thinking that mom would be furious because she warned me earlier...

so i asked one of the policemen "manong pwede bang makitawag sa phone mu, magpapasundo lang ako" and he replied "pwede text na lang kasi wala akong load eh"..
so i texted paolo to call the precint... natatakot na kasi ako and at the same time
im so hungry...

one of the police "runner" offered me some food sabi nya "ser kaen muna kayo baka magutom ka tsaka nagpuputukan na sa labas mamimiss moang medya noche".

but i didnt even welcome the thought na new year na, after a few mins. paolo called the station and i cried over the phone kasi naman i feel like im so alone, and at the same time im starting to miss badong (name of my phone)...

paolo said that he'll go to the station pero mga 5am pa kasi mahirap sumakay and at the same time baka sya naman ang maholdap diba...

so i waited till 5am, pero 6am na sya nakadating.. pagdating ni paolo tsaka lang ako narelieve kasi alam ko makakauwi na ko... haaayyy!!!

grabe talaga yung experience na yon sobra yung takot ko, lesson learned: sometimes you really have to listen to your mom.. minsan tama ang mga nanay... hehehe

to badong: im going to miss you, and ill be missing you always for the rest of my life sana ingatan sya ng mga nakakuha sa kanya..